Come on and laugh out loud.

I had this headache since yesterday and I don't know why it bothered me so much. usually, I'll take these pills and straight away go to sleep. but I can't sleep last night. at all. mind you, AT ALL. what I did is I stare into the darkness and started to imagine things. too bad for me, this sad feelings comes again and hell I don't know where does it comes from and for what reason. I look at my cell's and it's 2.30 am. I was trying to sleep at 12.30 am before and it takes me two whole hours but still I didn't sleep yet. what the hell is wrong with me?

and yesterday too I had this dream of me getting married in my tidur petang. yaicks. I woke up with sweats all over me because Jitra is damn hot lately. I dreamt that I was married to this one guy which I clearly didn't remember who he was and in that dream I was very panicked as I realized I can't wear all those jeans of mine, those tees and blablabla since I'm going to be somebody's wife and there are people in that dream who keep telling me that I should change my lifestyle. that I should, you know, be a little woman-ish or things like that. gila apa mimpi macam tu? but it's true. I'm not making up stories. so I was TOTALLY freaked out. I remember I woke up at 5.00 pm something and were afraid. haha. with this horrible dream, I might postponed my wedding age which is from 27 to 29. sumpah takut la! if you were in the dream then you'll know how scary it was.

today I'm still at home doing nothing and I think I might throw up if I still do nothing for the rest of the day. I am fuckingly bored. I want to go out but I don't have any place to go. Nunun's not here and I can't think of anyone to go out with. I know there's work for me to complete but I just can't right now. I'm not in the mood. I feel sick somehow but I know I'm not sick. it's my mind who THINK I'm sick. shit la.

I'll do PKK tonight. and the script. haih. I keep on sighing tapi, there's no effort of me to overcome these things. ish. gila gila gila. Adik Tgh texted just now asking about the script. omg. I stll haven't finish typing for the last scene. erh. it's okay. I'll reply later explaining the real situation. phew.

and and today's Tonggek's 20th. happy 20th sayang! nanti balik awak kena belanja Auntie Nie and the rest of the family tau! nak makan sedap-sedap. tak nak aiskrim ko-op ok! haha. :)

*from left : me, Tonggek and Adik Tgh. cute kan niece Auntie Nie?