Look I'm still around.

Self talking for dummies.

I keep reminding myself to stay put these days, hence my eventful life.

and had been trying real hard in developing one hell of a patient soul too.

Perfect girlfriend.

THIS IS RATHER INTERESTING YET TRUE.

What is a perfect girlfriend? They say there is no such thing as perfection, and therefore perfect girlfriend doesn't exist at any circumstances.

She dresses up all cute and pretty every time you take her out on a date. This is her way of keeping you interested and your eyes are locked solely on her. But you stare at other girls instead, and she gets hurt and upset that all her time and all the effort were put to waste. You call her insecure now.

She holds on to you like she'll never let you go. This is her way of telling other girls she's lucky to have you, and no, you're not available. You call her clingy.

She calls you with the sweetest nicknames, or ones that only you two will understand. This is her way of saying how special you are, and there is nobody else in this world like you. You call other girls "babe" just as how you would call her, and she gets disappointed. You call her shallow and jealous for no reason.

She checks up on you, making sure you made it home safely or that you're not out getting yourself into any kind of trouble. This is her way of showing how often she thinks about you and that she worries constantly because that's how much she cares. You say she's nagging.

She cries when you do or say something wrong. This is her way of saying "That hurt only because YOU said it and I love only YOU". Directly you call her overly sensitive and being so emotional.

She loves you more than you love her. This is her way of dealing with the fact that your relationship wasn't like how it used to be, but she is willing to make room for more love and some changes. You push her away again and again. You call her dramatic and annoying.

So go ahead. Leave the insecure, clingy, jealous, nagging, overly sensitive,  emotional, annoying girl you had.

She will soon be much happier in the arms of someone who actually deserves her and loves her for who she is.

Now recall, how were you acting again?

TAKEN SOMEWHERE HERE.

The first man a little girl falls in love with is her daddy.

here's a quick update. semalam birthday bapak. semalam adik tak lepas JPJ test and semalam jugak I sprinkled my right leg during kelas olahraga.

I panicked at first, no kidding. I find it hard to sleep too last night because of lenguh-lenguh and sengal-sengal kat lutut but hopefully today I'll be getting better Insya-Allah. I could really use some prayers right now. :')

I told bapak about what happened a bit late than usual and he strictly said no mengurut. I should letak ais je on top of my knee within 72 hours and bapak kata if still sakit, go seek for doctor's advices. I think I'll be fine, it's just a minor injury of terseliuh. I mean kecik-kecik dulu main naik basikal pun selalu jatuh jugak kan. chillex. in a few days time, I'll get up and start running again.

 

by the way, happy birthday bapak.

sorry for causing you trouble throughout these years.

 as plain this might sounds, I love you with all my heart. honestly.

There's something like a line of gold thread running through a man's words when he talks to his daughter, and gradually over the years it gets to be long enough for you to pick up in your hands and weave into a cloth that feels like love itself. - John Gregory Brown

I ♥ JAPAN.

I finally got my parcel yesterday. I went to check with the office a few days before and the thing is I forgot to ask the sender first because pos laju/pos ekspres je parcel masuk office. ordinary parcels kena kutip sendiri kat kafe. god I should have asked in the first place, the same silly me. nasib baik ada orang passkan kat Shakirah and the parcel then arrived safe and sound into my hands.

thank you, you.

Like whoa.

hmm because each time I did something it never had been enough,

or at least satisfying to speak of which.

maybe in between, not sure. 

torturing, blaming seems enjoyable to you as much as ice cream is.

and silence treatment some more.

somewhat a payback we call it.

you know what it feels like? 

TRASH, UGLY STINKY TRASH.

how to say this in words --- miserable, terrible, horrible.

yes that would be it...without wavering.

okay let's play this the way you wanted to.

I will stop to care if that is so pleasing.

I will be definitely avoiding you.

I will start watching videos too. 

just for laugh, pathetically.

Decode.

how did we get here, when I used to know you so well?

Ned Nott and Sam Shott.

while printing, I decided to expose here of what we'll be doing in English class tomorrow morning. TOUNGE TWISTER! super fun isn't it? it is one of my favourite part in learning language. I think I looked kinda funny when I tried too hard to pronounce those lines. ala who cares, everyone does the same. that's how we learn things. *shy laugh* oh and I discovered there are actually a few types of tounge twisters. here I include an example of poetry tounge twister.

HIHIHI kakak-kakak abang-abang meh kita baca sama-sama yah ;

Ned Nott was shot and Sam Shott was not.
So it is better to be Shott than Nott.
Some say Nott was not shot.
But Shott says he shot Nott.
Either the shot Shott shot at Nott was not shot,
Or Nott was shot.
If the shot Shott shot shot Nott, Nott was shot.
But if the shot Shott shot shot Shott,
Then Shott was shot, not Nott.
However, the shot Shott shot shot not Shott, but Nott.

Back here.

assalamualaikum dan selamat maghrib, saya dah sampai Cheras. perlu tak saya cakap saya stuck dalam jam for 14 WHOLE hours on the highway hari tu? ZzZzZzZ bosan gila batak woi. rasa nak menyebai sepanjang jalan. sampai tak larat nak usya mamat hensem dah aih, cemuih. okay tayang gambar sikit.

 bukti kereta BANYAK.

neah barang depa saja sekerat kereta. HAHA

muka penumpang pun kena la ada jugak kan?

sebenarnya aku tak mandi lagi. tengah tunggu kakak-kakak KPLI. depa penuh satu bilik air celah mana aku nak mandi pun tak tau lah, tu pasal mai bukak blog ni. panas dah kak oiii, cepat sikit mandi. toksah berendam lama-lama sangat.

and and last shoutout goes to...err no one actually, saja nak habaq kata Canon dah ada beg baru. hihik okay that's it lah, bye see you some other day.

Accidentally on purpose.

disebabkan lagu kat bawah ni yes lagu kat bawah ni, I got the chance to finally interact with him!!! yaaaaa speechless tak payah cakap, berdebar tak payah cakap muahaha because we happened to be liking the same song for the time being. ish rasa nak sapu sampah keliling rumah je sebab overwhelmed sangat. 

I have been secretly fancy this person and his band since forever and it's like a wish came true you know, it was as if Zachary Levi noticed you when you walked down a road and he waved at you, calling your name etc etc. what will you do? you'll be as hell jumping around in excitement just like me. WICKED!

mood aku tengah baik ni, senyum sampai pagi esok tak makan pun takpa dah.

Tak semua kita rancang akan berlaku.

bosan jugak sorang-sorang rupanya eh, tengok aku merepek sampai tiga post dah hari ni. bapak kerja mak kerja adik kerja. duduk la sorang-sorang kat rumah. mak balik lambat sikit ada ko-kurikulum kat sekolah, bapak balik petang after office hours, adik lagi over balik malam terus. nasib baik ada internet, TV, dapur boleh lah aku bergolek sakan berpesta liar sorang-sorang dalam rumah. heeeee

I think that's one of the reasons why I go out spending time outside a lot. ehm kawan-kawan aku mostly macam aku jugak. Jah anak bongsu, Nun anak bongsu, Shafiz anak bongsu, Hazim anak tunggal, Enna ada adik lelaki sorang je tu pun dah tua bangka dah adik dia macam adik aku jugak. K-own dengan Nadia pun sama, adik-adik dah habis sekolah. mak ayah masing-masing kerja so apa lah sangat nak buat kat rumah. dah siap kemas rumah serba serbi terus tak tau nak buat apa mula ah gatal tangan sekoq-sekoq hello-hello ajak pergi sana sini. haha tapi sekarang ni semenjak mak cik Nun jadi wanita bekerjaya aku pun kurang keluar tadak idea nak pergi mana and end up main-main kat rumah je. 

ish ada motif tak penulisan ni? tsk tadak kan kan kan. kthxbai.

Lost in the plot.

alamak rindu pulak, hihi. >___<"

We need a miracle.

these are taken from Mimie's twitter from her previous tweet. 

"I'm with 7 students from Egypt. Wow kat sini pun dah hectic I can't imagine themselves there."

"The Star, embassy called them. Mesti diorang tengah serabut. I, on the other hand mengantuk and nak sambung tidur. Lol"

"Just in case you're wondering, the rape case tu rumours and orang kena tembak kaki tu rubber pellet je. Sibuk kan saya ni."

"Boleh tak suruh diorang cakap kat The Star they are safe here in Mimie's house in Edinburgh? Haha"

  how convincing this might be, we cannot be rest assured.

Siti Aminah di Germany.

I wasn't interested in anything related to this girl's background when I watched these videos at first so I just let it slip by. but when I re-read some of the comments and responds, I came to realize this is the kartunis's daughter, yang anak lelaki dia dulu dilarikan oleh isteri first dia to Britain, to her hometown. 

by the way, budak pompuan ni anak dia dengan isteri second dia kat German. comel sangat budak ni cakap melayu and I gave her an extra credit for she speaks in loghat utara hehe. daddy had taught you well yes girl? cubit pipi kang!

 

3 years old Siti Aminah

4 years old Siti Aminah

dah alang-alang aku baca background budak ni, aku pun baca sekali pasal ayah dia Lepat tu. sekali baca rasa simpati aku memang melimpah ruah I mean how could they did such thing to him? dia ada anak lelaki yang dilahirkan beragama Islam, maka relevan lah rasa risau dia terhadap anak lelaki dia, murtad ke apa kalau tak dibimbing dengan betul ye tak. and throughout my reading too, I gather some information that his son had changed his name to something else. so tadak lagi dah nama ke-melayuan yang ayah dia bagi dulu masa dia lahir. 

if you feel like digging some more on this matter you may read here Ismail Lepat atau Ismail Ariffin Dianiaya Sistem Politik Malaysia? boleh lah tengok video dia yang sejam lebih tu, aku tengok je sampai habis walaupun lama. =___="

p/s : recent comments saying that Sunni (Lepat's son) is one of Jukebox Juniors member in Got To Dance UK. oh my could you just imagine how would his birth father felt? *heavy sigh*