I still want to carry you around even when you seemed to be ripped apart.

kenapa benda yang kita sayang atau suka cepat sangat tinggalkan kita?

bengap! jiwang menatang apa tak tau.

right, cut the crap.

this is my favourite sneakers. but she left me, dah rosak. tapak dah haus plus koyak merata. atas memang nampak cantik. tapi kat bawah tu...hmm tak sanggup aku nak dedahkan kecelaan dia kat sini. biarlah aku sorang saja yang tau. hehe. kasut ni kan erm, brought me to too many places and some with unforgettable memories. now get how did she'd been useful to me yet? sumpah sayang kasut ni. tapi nak buat macam mana kan.

I was thinking on buying the same pair because when I went to a store nearby they still have this shoes. tapi after some consideration, takkan nak beli yang sama pulak kan. just like Britney dengan Kevin, they didn't get along well for the second time. so I'm sticking to my 'use-once-if-broken-get-a-new-one' eh kena mengena ka dengan Britney and Kevin? alah apa-apalah.

kasi menarik sikit meh tengok gambar, oh yes red is just my colour.

 dari atas tehehe buruk sudah di dalam itu

 close up sikit

 pandangan sisi, love the matchless texture

so what do you think?

certainly gonna go and seek for a new pair.

^.^

Query.

Behind every untrusting girl is a boy who made her that way.

oh is it so readers?

He said thanks.

I miss walking with you and the stupid things we talked,

because that is what we're really good at.

kick each other's behinds as we stroll the parking lot.
smell your hair as I kiss your head,
take any random bus to anywhere, just to be together.
chat for hours in the park while having ice cream.
and excited to sleep to meet you in my dream.

perhaps you are the only person who took me seriously.
breakfast, lunch, lectures and dinner.

and like you said,
the only problem we had back then was transportation.

smells like a pure heart-broken,

erm it's a random copy-and-paste.

Swaying in thoughts.

SERIOUSLY I have a feeling of writing everything down here. I want to nag and keep nagging till you got bored listening to me. first, I want to write pasal hantar Kunduq pergi Medan and I want to put up all the crazy pictures too.

then, I want to write about the day I went to watch Inception with Fren. I want to describe in details of how I don't really get the message of the movie at first 30 minutes showing. I want to write about how cold it is in that place and those very few people who watched the movie with us in the cinema.

I want to write about the difficulties I'd been through in completing my kolaj bunga and kolaj fraction. I know it didn't look that beautiful and neat but still I'm proud of myself because I'd put very much effort in producing those two.

I want to write and tell you about my classes, of how we sang in class for Seni Dalam Pendidikan and the way we struggle to find pictures that have several techniques i.e perspektif, close-up, panning and so on to present in class.

tapi, tadi mak call and bingo adik caused some more trouble at home and I don't see how do I write those things I want to write here with this uncertain feeling thinking of home and at the same time I know I don't want to go home just yet, I need to wait for things to cool down first I know that. at this point, I'm blaming bapak no more for being too firm on adik. I don't know who to trust anymore and I don't know where will this lead to. I just hope mak wouldn't be that disappointed but from her voice just now I know it hurts her big time. I thought he'd changed. I thought he'll be someone trust-able again, but I guess I was wrong. I wish I could lend a hand though I don't know how to.

and yes I'm in a state of frustration.

Malu tapi nak tunjuk jugak.

 pondan sumpah pondan.

haram weh aku pun geli tengok muka aku!

hahaha captured and edited by KW.

aku tak terlibat, aku semata curik from blog dia and upload kat sini.

siapa-siapa tengah jiwa kacau tu meh la menatap muka kami.

kalau tak banyak, sikit pun mesti gelak tengok kepondanan kami kan.

gosh wishing you a great day ahead then ;)

Dugaan hidup.

this is a quick update, like real quick I promise you.

firstly, mak called yesterday asking for my particular to fill in the forms. to tell you the truth I'm not really confident with that. it makes me worried, not that much of worrying but still I worried. I don't know whether she had been doing some serious thinking through everything or not but I think she must have talked to bapak first before they made any decisions on that kan.

pasal apa?

pasal retirement. 

erm.

apa-apa pun I know mak will do her best for her and for the rest of us, it's a mom's nature is it. I believe you and I love you.

btw just now during dinner, we girls discussed on a very serious matter, in fact it was a sensitive one. orang lain tak paham punya lah kecuali kami-kami yang terjebak nih. kan? thank you girls thank you very much. at least aku tau aku tak sorang, I mean every family ada je issues camtu betul tak and having the rest of you people near me absolutely will help, only by listening to me. KW, jangan risau-risau sangat. seperti yang dipersetujui, mereka masih leka, tak sedar, tak faham, tak boleh beza mana satu baik atau tak. kita kan kakak, Ezadd kan tersilap jadi anak sulung, kita semua DIVA. 

DIVA sentiasa DIVA ye tak. ^.^

kata KW, kalau boleh tukar duit dengan tingkah laku dah lama dah KW tukar sekurang-kurangnya tak sakit kepala fikir macam-macam.

Mind you.

If having me is such a pain in the ass, then leave.

WHATEVER.

ingat lagi?

Yesterday.

yesterday, was a blast bowling day. I'm feeling very contented and to dearest classmates, we still have another two years (an exact four semesters to go T.T) to be doing mad things like this before we parted into different directions.

haah dua tahun je lagi hmm nah tengok gambaq lah. *sedih*

pembuka tirai, muka KW yeh. angkat kening woh.

before gerak, tunggu driver-driver kehormat mai amek.

 

 

 

ah ni team lawan, kecuali Pah. Pah team aku XD

amboi Bobby dengan Ezzati kekeke.

 

 

bising gila Father, salotape mulut baru tau buat segan jek.

 

 

 

we salute great bowlers!

 

 

aish makanan tak boleh tinggal, crepe sedap nih~

 

and my favourite, presenting DORALIN!!!

emh sedap betul makan, comel betul buat peace hahaha.

I fancied this better than that.

at some point, I have a warm cosy feeling when these important people started calling me Budi, nak panggil cepat-cepat sekarang dah tinggal Budd je though it was an accidental name in the first place oh I do think Budi suits me very well.

remember the way Nina panggil Qi as Budi in Blogger Boy?

comel. 

kan?

I don't know why.

I just merely like it.

it makes me feel...different,

and less girlish too.

compared to so-called Hani lah kan ergh.

yah I'm Farhani but I don't really prefer Hani.

haha hey, nama saya Budi.

nama awak siapa?

nice knowing you, stranger.

Proud to be a twenty.

the opening of ASEAN school games was finally over. it has nothing to do with me, kami kan singkiran. but a few of my friends that had been volunteering semestinya lega since everybody keep on complaining sakit kaki, sakit belakang sakit semua because of the position mencangkung and duduk sempit-sempit.

Zaki cakap, kalau kentut confirm lemas ah haha.

oh that's not the point. saja je aku tulis ni nak bangga (eh patut bangga ke?) sebab hari ni dua kali orang tanya 'ni from sekolah mana ni?' hahahahaha kami tau la kami comel pakcik, tak patut betul pakcik cakap kami budak sekolah. kami dah 21 tau. aiyok. tapi seronok la sat, bajet muda. mungkin faktor pakaian, pakai t-shirt rumah sukan dengan sport shoes plus tudung selebet-selebet kut sebab tu depa agak budak sekolah tingkatan lima.

ok lain kali saya pakai kebaya dengan selendang cantik eh pakcik.

Apa saja yang kau mahu.

semua untukmu

oh adindaku

dengarlah rayuan di hatiku

sesungguhnya aku mencintaimu

selalu di hatiku memanggil namamu

oh adindaku

oh adindaku

semua kerana, kerna kamu.

p/s : life had been great for me. how's yours?

Imma be.

isk awat rasa nak emo entah, nak bebai.

jangan. jangan kisahkan aku pun. buat macam biasa, buat aku invisible macam biasa. segala apa aku pernah buat, jangan hargai. sila ungkit pasal tanggungjawab yang sepatutnya aku galas tapi aku abaikan. segala apa jahat itu semua aku, segala apa baik itu semua kalian.

eh bukan aku tak cakap pasai hang, aku cakap pasai aku.

Imma be Imma be Imma Imma Imma be arrogant just like you.

alang-alang tengah cakap pasai bebai,

ni tangan bebai Aney tunggu Nun lama sangat =.="

Kali ni pasal sedap.

quite frantic of a weekend I had. Jumaat kelas, Sabtu kelas ganti, Ahad Isnin Selasa nanti kena pergi apatah untuk opening ASEAN school games tu.

tapi,

Jumaat petang sempat lagi jalan-jalan dengan KW, trying out Pepper Lunch which is quite tasty yesh definitely nak pergi lagi. nak ikut tak? we food freaks always feed ourselves with good food because it simply makes us happy! haha and also I bought two new necklaces, gedik gila serius tak plan nak beli accessories, tapi TERbeli dua pulak. sorry duit elaun lepas ni janji BUAT lagi.

Sabtu after class pun ramai-ramai keluar tapi sampai BTR je lah lepas tu ada yang pergi Sogo, pergi itu ini. I went to watch Eclipse, seronok jugak tengok warm werewolves made a pact with cold vampires since it's very rare kan, a pact on protecting human pulak tu haha though I think there's too much excessive kissing scenes padahal cerita tu 13PG, mak oi banyak budak-budak bawah umur dengan parents datang, cemar betul. I dislike Bella! she's being too greedy. suka satu sudah, ni mengada nak suka dua lepas tu tak macam blur nak pilih yang mana la pulak kan.

but since Jasper's very rawrrr, I'll stop bitching about Bella hehe.

nah tengok gambar~

muka 'saya nak makan ni' - KW

aku pun menyampah tengok expression aku~

ok fine, abaikan! sila rujuk makanan sedap di bawah

here comes the food!

the kakak worked there helped me to mix this up

thank you kakak heheh~

Jeremy-shi!

Lee Hong Ki ah!

err tak mau lah mengaku suka, 

nanti ada orang perli 'eh suka mamat Korea jugak?' 

since I've been provoking him 'ces memilih betul nak minat pompuan Korea jek'

weeeeeeeeee.

ni KW yang sebenarnya minat ni, bukan aku. post ni kira tribute untuk KW lah.

*though he happens to be quite appealing wuwu*

Lets rejoice in the beautiful game.

baru belajar tengok bola sikit nak menunjuk macam follow semua benda pasal bola as if dah tengok bola since the day you were born. ah damn pathetic poser. tak faham aku. kalau tak tengok bola cakap je la tak tengok bola dulu. macam aku. kan senang. Subkhidin entah apa nama dia tu siapa pun aku haram tak tau sebelum ni. aku mengaku je aku tak tau, kena gelak pun tak kisah lah.

masalah jugak pompuan-pompuan macam ni.

let them be, none of my business anyway. 

well dearest classmate, drive carefully back to Terengganu this weekend. the rest of us surely will pray for things to be back in good shape as it was before. worry less please, Insya-Allah everything will turned out to be just fine.

have faith and be strong.

Come pick me up.

I love your tacky cynical smile,

but I don't get to see it very often anymore.

Baru seminggu dah rindu.

I'm starting to miss everyone at home,

a crowd of awesome people by the name friends.

 

K-own's ayam bakaq

bapak and mak too T.T

Crap c rap cr ap cra p crap.

I don't have any clue that Holland, Netherland and Belanda are all the same. I mean, duh it's the same country we're talking about mister. there is no such absurd match between Belanda and Netherland ye.



proven, I know nothing related to football.



and, though I don't watch K-On! I still know that it is some sort of Manga comic of young girls whatsoever. kan, Manga lovers?



but, Bamir did exposed me to Gundam when I was a small kid.

Hi, I'm a Malaysian. I eat rice all the time and I say 'Lah' consistently.

happy 3rd July peeps, eheh no there's no special occasion on 3rd July pun, it's just I feel like greeting you with happy 3rd July, so I greet lah.

oh I found a page on Facebook that goes with the name "Hi I'm a Malaysian. I eat rice all the time and I say 'Lah' consistently :)"





kawaiii.





some people think using a 'lah' at the back of a sentence is quite intolerable, uh I doubt that. I think it was quite amusing tehehe.

ok ask me what do I want to write about in this post? nothing! hahah I'm bored. no one's here to fool around with. KW dating, Ezadd balik, KT balik. guys, come back quickly let's waka waka together.

Farah is asking me on a date but I'm still considering (gedik buat juai mahai pulak) tadak lah, makcik Azizah mai KL la so she seems to be occupied for Saturday, she told me she'll consider about Sunday.

nama saja rumah dekat jumpa tak pernah pun tsk.





right, stop rubbish-ing (eh gila perkataan celah mana mai pun tak tau lah). will let From Paris With Love taking over me.

see ya 'round.

Neither do I don't want to be.

"Nobody should be anyone's plan B"

why don't you nod along and admit that it's true? it was a lady who wrote that one in her blog, I adore most of the things written there.

and to dear you, thanks for the wonderful day.

Welcoming new classmate.

helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

I'm in semester four now, ehem dua tahun lagi nak habis, Insya-Allah lepas tu kahwin hehe tak-tak, lepas tu travelling! yeay. diam, ni angan-angan. semua orang kena ada angan-angan baru lah ada usaha untuk kita merealisasikannya suatu hari nanti ceeeee.

ok tukar, kita cerita pasal lain.

kelas kami ada budak baru you, meh nak tunjuk sikit.

hai nama saya Sumardi anak lelaki Sagah,
oppps correction, Sumardi Bin Sagah.

dia baru pindah from IP Miri, ha dia orang Sabah tapi tak sekampung dengan Stacy la for sure, pindah atas sebab-sebab yang tak dapat dielakkan. kesian aku dengar cerita dia T.T haih kawan sendiri pun sanggup buat macam tu. you should better off rot in hell! eh touching pulak. huhu siapa-siapa berkenan meh nama aku tolong adjustkan, aku tak tau la pulak dia ada girlpren ke tak, apa salahnya mencuba kan kikiki dasar gatai betui hampa ni.

ah tu nak buat spekulasi la tu macam mana aku ada gambar dia, kan? ces you gossip girl people. aku penolong ketua kelas sem ni tauuu sebab tu aku mintak gambar dia nak masukkan dalam list name gambar budak-budak kelas. hihi padahal nak menunjuk jadi penolong ketua kelas sebenarnya.

aku benci Mat dengan Nun, depa message aku malam-malam cakap good night semata nak perli aku jadi penolong. pakai ayat selamat malam penolong lah, penolong kena tidoq awai sebab kena bangun awai pagi pi jaga kelas lah. har har har harem.

err sorry nah Sumardi aku pakai gambar kau letak kat blog, mana lah tau kau tak suka ka apa pulak kan. have fun with us in Maths 2, we sure will make a bunch of fabulous people. definitely!