Kak Mas kahwin.

I know I'm about a month late since the wedding took place. blaming my lazy ass for not uploading the pictures as soon as it's over. =___=" actually I would very much like to describe each and every event occurred on the wedding day but since it has been a while, and the topic seems not that intriguing anymore so I'm choosing to only upload the pictures. LOL boleh camtu? because this wedding, it's one of the highlighted wedding of the year for me, whoops jangan fikir ni wedding paling gempak ke apa pulakkk. I'm labelling it as wedding of the year because this lady, she's my cousin by blood. tambah pulak wedding dia on December, hujung tahun, so acceptable la jadi wedding of the year eh?

sapa-sapa ada planning nak kawen in 2012 boleh la buat as rujukan. X)

pelamin for the day. looked simple but, it costs a lot. $___$

the little flower girls & flower boys. these are my cousins' daughters & sons, so I'm actually an auntie to them.

Tok in action. ni tok (nenek) sebelah mak ye. Tok tak lawa lagi masa ni, tak pakai selendang betul-betul. HAHA

from left Mak Ngah, bride for the day mom. yang kanan tu me mommy! :)

lawanya yang kiri sekali tu tolong kirim salam sat, cakap nak berkenalan. muehehe sebelah Tok, Mak Long anak paling tuaaa & paling baik!

favourite cousin, Kak Anis.

candy corner.

Mak Ngah & Kak Marina, welcoming the guests.

hall from an angle.

photo booth, oh guest book pun ada jugak hehe for you to live your evidence of absence.

cousin gua part time model bhai. -_____-

this is what I like the most, the wedding presentation! Kak Mas told me she didn't have much time to shoot for a wedding video so they just went for a filming at a bookstore, but it looked pretty awesome to me! daebak!

hihihih sapa ni sapa ni, mi familia with the pengantins yaw. tapi adik takda dia mengada tak mau balik nak jugak duduk kat Merbok tu lantak hang la padan muka takda dalam gambar.

the bin/binti Shahab or we shall call it as The Shahabs. tu semua kakak-kakak, adik-adik mak gua, 8 beradik cukup.

The Shahabs minus the newly wed couple.

In denial like me.

gulp Isnin atau Selasa minggu depan kena balik Cheras. eh? OK -__________-

Maybe.

terjumpa. terplay. tersuka. lalu post kat blog dengan sengaja. 

"Oh, the only way to really know is to really let it go,
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back,
You're gonna come back to me, you're gonna come back to me."

ahhh tiba-tiba rasa macam if only playing ukulele is allowed.

No useful reference here don't say I didn't warn you.

changed for the better, seriously? really, seriously? shut the fuck up. posting a few religious links on your site doesn't automatically make you a good person overnight isn't it? oooh alright at least you tried. me? hmph OK 1 - 0. who am I to judge you anyway kan? pffft being judgmental is like so last year you urban people said (read: sarcasm). tapiiiii the Zoukout that comes after that? Tiesto? Rootz? jangan ingat I tak tau bang. *laugh* I tak nampak the relevance of your so called 'changed for the better' you tu kat situ. so I celaka kan? you lagi celaka kot. tak pun kita sama-sama celaka kay, fair and fucking square. nak? sini meh nak kiss sikit. then you can get the fuck off you fucking asshole. hiks :)

a lil bit teladan here kids; practice what you preach. don't lose respect. simple.

Littlest Things.

6 days past December. so friends, whaddup? have something in mind for December? I'm hoping to end my December, yet my year, appropriately. that's all. because December has always been a laid back month, cos you know, I'm in the middle of holidays. got no assignments, no classes, not too much bitching, not too much stress. basically nothing & it's actually comforting liddattt.

sooo speaking of months, there's a side of me that I find quite geeky. HAHA bodoh tak payah over sangat, I bet most girls sama. at least a few girls I knew ada the same perangai which is we remember dates. we pay an extra attention on small little details of things going on around us. are you with me girls?

kalau tak takdala Lily Allen buat lagu pasal Littlest Things kan booyah! 

these dates ;

• 24/10/2009
• 29/10/2010
• 09/01/2010
• 21/01/2010
• 07/02/2010
• 02/07/2010
• 28/08/2010

lastly.

• 13/11/2010

I remember what happened on these dates. the happy/shitty memories they bring regarding a person I used to know very well, a one person that...yeazzz  I. TOTALLY. AM. A. FREAK. tell me something I don't know. >.<

Darling I've loved you for a thousand years.

sempena dah tengok Breaking Dawn hari ni maka malam ni meh ramai-ramai dengar OST movie tersebut pulak. Breaking Dawn ni from my point of view dah boleh bertepuk tampar dengan a few other soft porn movies, video klip Rihanna - We Found Love contohnya. tapi nak tengok the Cullens punya pasai, tengok jugakla. hihihi tapiii jangan risau noks, awal-awal je sikit. tu pun most Malaysian cinemas dah cut banyak dah, unless ada yang gigih tunggu DVDRip version then download uncut scenes punya la kan. towards the end tu dah more to Edward/Jacob protecting Bella's pregnancy from the dogs. don't worry. ^o^

I still hate Bella. she's a selfless bitch. tamak. Jacob nak Edward pun nak. grrr

I prefer this Christina Perri's OST rather than Bruno Mars.

Selamat Tahun Baru 1433.

hari baru tahun baru 1433 dimulakan dengan kenduri kahwin. up to this level, kenduri kahwin bukan setakat Sabtu/Ahad, both Tuesdays and Thursdays pun ada jugak. kalau yang kawan-kawan tu sah-sah la aku pi. kalau yang mak bapak punya kawan, ehm, tengok lokasi kenduri dulu, baru decide nak ikut atau tak. peh demand siak. HAHAHA takda ah. ingat senang?!? sementara nak duduk and makan each time sampai rumah kenduri, kena salam seribu orang dulu pastu orang tanya pulak 'ni anak yang ni belajar mana/kerja apa/kat mana' segala baru nak kedek-kedek ambik lauk and settle down untuk makan. kalau kena table tu ada kawan-kawan depa lagi ah. sembang setahun, baru teringat ajak balik. jenuh nganga kalau ikut tak tau nak buat apa. dok terkebil-kebil sorang-sorang tang tu jawab dia. mulut lenguh asyik senyum tak payah cerita la. hmph

K panjang dah kot. bawah ni ada gambar raw curik from Zackie. gambar nak oren saja. baju aku dah la stripes head to toe oren, gambar pulak nak mode shade ja. nah ambik buntang mata hampa tengok, tengok la nah, tengok la.

We found love in a hopeless place.

malam ni nak mimpi AG, and that new Godin of his. the Godin that he's been telling the world about. he shall not be saying anything in the dream. he'll sit silently in a corner of the red room in his studio, with me sitting beside him. holding the Godin in his hands and play me a song. every song that I want to hear. then I'll start spilling everything to him, I want to tell him everything that I know. I want to tell him about my day. I want to tell him about how unsure I am of what I've been doing now. I want to tell him of those boring days I had. I want to tell him how far things had changed that people nowadays hardly have time for other people. I want to tell him of how busy my loved ones had become that no one's actually listen to me babbling anymore. I'll tell him that I'd tried but they shut me off. they were too busy doing their things I don't know where to turn to. I sent them long texts, but sadly I never got any reply. I will never forget to tell him that I still secretly wish for a sister. hehehe. I'll whisper to him how lucky I am to have him around and that he should pay me a visit more often, in dreams, so that I would not be bothered by anything else. >.<

oyes this is my dream. let me have it the way I want. good night reality.

Pull the trigger, boom!

here's a lullaby I'll leave you to listen to for tonight. I put this one on repeat for a few days now. not that it's a new song pun. haizzz good night lads and gents!

rum pa pa pum rum pa pa pum rum pa pa pum me say wah man down.

look I never thought I'd do it, never thought I'd do it, never thought I'd do it.
what ever happened to me, ever happened to me, ever happened to me.

Transparent. Lame. Period.

been shutting myself from the Facebook world for a month and a week now. think I should give myself an excuse and reactivate my account back since I couldn't get hold of the information posted in all those various private groups. some are very important details that I really need to take note of you see.

I've seen the harm Facebook brings to people. me, you, him, her, them. that's why. Facebook has become so visible... and transparent I couldn't stand it.

despite of how much I hate Facebook, no, not hate. hate is such a strong word. I just kinda dislike, wait, I think 'not prefer' is better. yes, most likely. I don't prefer Facebook to be the main site for me to virtually socialize anymore.

nevertheless, hello Facebook. *clicking the log in button*

Money moneyy moneyyy. $_$

lemme tell you, I earned RM50 today. I worked. my first RM50. should give myself a pat in the back, no? good job Farhani. very well done. for some people this might be nothing, but it means the world to me. hey I actually contribute something to the society and then got paid for the work I did.

I have never been working you see.

guess that's why I'm making such a fuss over this though it's only RM50. HAHAH who cares. feels like taking a picture of me and the money and post it up here tapi rasa macam over pulak so tak jadi so takpa lahhhhh.

anywaysss exam's finally over. can't believe I've been through with semester 6 already, sighhh how time flies. SO I THINK I CAN KISS SEMESTER 6 A GOODBYE NOW!!! happy holidays classmates! happy holidays PISMP January '09 intake! stay healthy and be safe, see you next semester!!!

It has been a while.

"Don't wait. The time will never be just right. 
What we do today is what matters most."

Got a feeling I can be someone.

terkejut tak? terkejut kan? kay I know where I stand now. guess this will be my turning point too, no? I will never look back. yeah gal YOU SHOULD NEVER.

BY THE WAY.

"didn't I tell you I love beautiful melodies telling me terrible things?"

I didn't miss the other 10 months did I?

I like red. red is blood. it's a bit funny isn't it when we have nothing in between except for blood?

Hello November.

Yes word.

Sarah said yes. Chuck's probably the happiest man alive. 

it took her 3 years just to nod her head and said yes.

it's risky guys. good luck in taking one. :)

Can the books take the place of you?

I purposely left my Terry McMillan's A Day Late and A Dollar Short at Kasturi. now I'm down with nothing to read. ada je English Methodology Principles and Practice of Teaching, Amalan Pentaksiran dalam Matematik notes and blah blah to read tapi ehm malasla. tak rasa nak baca buku pelajaran while in the middle of cuti. yeah I'm THAT type of person. I'm no hardworking as you. -___-

it has been a while since I ACTUALLY read something. and I was in deep regret too because last time I went to Big Bad Wolf, I didn't bought anything by Danielle Steel. :( if there's anything Ba had taught me, one of them is Danielle Steel. Ba gave me a book when I was little, I think it was when I'm 12 years old. after UPSR. sure got nothing to do innit? Ba told me whenever you want to start acquire the language, by reading of course, read this book. which was the book he gave me. Danielle Steel - Daddy. that's my first fiction book. put aside Enid Blyton for kids tu lah kaaaaannnnn. :)

okay! enough of childhood memories, let's dig up the piles of books I have at home and maybe, well maybe, I might read Anne Rivers Siddon's of Nora, Nora.  Anne Lamott's of Blue Shoe, AGAIN. or whichever. to keep me occupied.

Graduation is another beginning. Fight hard, fighters!

#Aidilfitri 2010

it was when the picture was captured. anyways happy graduation bitch number 1! I'm truly sorry I can't be there. I know how important it is to you but what to do, the timing is slightly wrong. Pakdi, Kadesh, Aney & Farah were all there so I heard. then you'll be just fine wouldn't you? nevermind let's make up once we meet! I'll treat you to something nice! it's a deal! lots and lotsa hugs and kisses!

#Urbanscapes 2011

we went to Urbanscapes just the two of us since no one's interested in going in the first place! hahaha it was one hell of fun! so this is to my number 2 bitch, happy graduating too! I know how you feel about the convocation and all...of course I can't say it here, but hey! don't let anything come in your way. just stay the fabulous you! you'll make it through! still have no idea when's the latest we could meet since you're already out of town but let's celebrate someday. 2 or 3 months late, it doesn't matter! will miss you real bad bubba!

Paling comel di hatiku.

orange pants! orange pants!

Ya Allah cutenya Taecyeon!!! cutenya!!! rasa nak mati tengok Taecyeon cute gila!!! I used to not give a damn when housemates watched these types of videos kat Kasturi, esp si student-exchange from Korea ehem-ehem Ezadd la kan siapa lagi tengok segala benda pasal Korea ni. sekarang ni siapa yang gila?! siapa?!!! *kelardada

it all started after tengok Dream High. serious busuk hati depa ni sebab bagi  + suruh aku tengok cerita/variety shows Korea. kan dah fall for Taecyeon deep gilbabs! OMGGGGG kalau ada sebijik Jang Geun Seuk and Taecyeon depan mata, serious mati. KIOK!

Damn.

tsk SAD. true that.

to whom it may concerned,

I tak mau camni kay boyfriend?

HAHAHA

You're so gay.

oohh tadi time tengok Real Steel dengan ucuk kat Pavilion kan ada gay kat depan geli-geli siak main lentok kat bahu, pegang tangan, god-knows-what-they're-doing. first time tengok live kot. mengalahkan aku yang straight ni boleh tak! eeii nak muntahla. eeii menyampahla. eeeeeeeeeeiiiiiiiiii

tapi tak sempat nak usya lebih-lebih cause right after the movie ended mamat ni dah kalut-kalut ajak keluar hall dah. takut aku usya & make faces to the gay couple lah tu. hahaha lantak! biar padan muka depa! serve them well! dah takda pompuan sangat gamaknya kat dunia ni? eeeeeuuuuuwwwww

Bad things happen, and most are my fault.

pernah dilanggar? pernah melanggar?

I did. I langgar a car in front of me at a junction. blue-ish CRV. ada makcik dengan pakcik dalam tu. luckily they ask nothing from me because there's just a minor scratch on their car. semua tu sebab apa? sebab careless. so aku dengan Didiey tak jauh beza sekarang. culas to the max. Allah je yang tau how scared I am, how terrified I am and gosh I don't know how to describe the feelings. I'm really really really really really really really really really really sorry. if only you both read this, then you know how regret I felt deep down inside.

I hate to say this but tomorrow marks a week after the accident. God please look after me, I'm begging you. I beg you with all my heart. :/

LESSON LEARNT.

Cheers to the freaking weekend, I drink to that.

greeting October with a hello, hello October. it has been a while. 

not so much of a blog post I want to write actually. it's just recently there's a thing that makes me wonder which is what is the freaking wrong with Malaysia's radio stations nowadays? all they have there are disco songs yada yada. you know, fake boobs. bimbos. bling bling. party hard. stay out late. pretty I must say. and hypnotizing but come on lah. music are so much more than these.

just saying yaw.

A day after I turned 22.

thank you BFFs, t'was a pleasant surprise.
I owe you one, BIG TIME.

speaking of that.

I choose to be happy, just plain happy. 
how so you?

and ah yes...

feeling grateful for this one too. :')

B-b-b-birthday.

happy 22nd birthday dear self.

setahun je lagi.

more or less.

♥♥♥

Nonsense yet funny kids.

I was lurking on the net the other night, jumping around stalking SKSBU teachers' facebook hihi. oh don't give me that what-are-you-doing-stalking-people's-facebook-account because boo everybody's a stalker. just admit that yo. suddenly I bumped into a few of my 3 Cemerlang pupils' account.

lepas tu terjumpa la Muhaimin punya facebook yang tak tahannya ada pulak 'in a relationship with' Natasya bla bla apatah whose in 3 Cemerlang too! I was all geli hati and tak percaya so I decided to ask for myself during school.

esoknya tu I went directly to Muhaimin and blurted out the question and guess whattt dia tak mengaku y'alls. hahaha merepek lah budak-budak niii. nasib baik cerdik pandai buat Maths. kalau bengap Maths memang aku tonyoh jak baru padan muka. OK serious nanti nak printscreen letak kat blog. Y___Y"

Femme fatale! Break a leg!

went to Rock The Youth earlier during the day and met a few familiar faces. it does gives me a sense of belonging and I'm grateful for that. 

Hasanul captured a photo of us but sadly takda ambik gambar dengan dia. aiseh. takpa lah Monash dekat je next time pun bolehhh. >,<

urgh crap now I miss Langkawi days!!!

Everybody's changing and I don't feel a thing.

kata lidah ;

I can't change you,
nobody can help you to change,
unless you really want to change.
I just hope you'll change on one fine day,
or you'll lose everything you said you care.

Bwoga.

OK Ahad lepas telah berlaku sedikit sesi panjat memanjat. I and a few friends went to Broga just you know, trying out the Broga to see for ourselves what Broga is like and curse you damn tiring lahhh!!! but of course I had fun hihi. I even drag along my two bitches Farah and Nasreyah. 

among us all Nasreyah paling semangat nak naik because the night before we lepak Canai. Anoz kan baru balik from Sheffield so they decided to held a small gathering. Anoz datang dengan Eryn and a few former budak PDRM Syubeck Acap and Shidan...I think. lepak there till like 2.30 am then balik Kasturi sekejap to pick a few things then at 3.45 am we took off to Semenyih. for fcuk sake we didn't sleep AT ALL. seriously knowing me, I so cannot tak tidur. at least for 2 to 3 hours I need to get my sleep huwargh.

I have picturesss. hehe nak tengok tak nak tengok tak? anyways thank you yeh Nik for inviting me and girlfriends! and thanks too sebab jaga kami all the way to the top and during all the way going down. tolong pegang kamera, tolong tarik beg and TOLONG AMBIK GAMBAR. haha Nasreyah pesan nanti kalau nak picnic invite lah kami lagi. Nasreyah pandai masak. >,<

(: oh yeah, pictures. here they are. :)

Companion of the moment.

specially dedicating this post to a girl I'd known since forever,

err if forever does exist.

thank you for the night spent, thanks for having me. 

I owe you one. 

much love! Xx