Love grows, including her ability to cope with it. That's how she keeps going.

Yuna - Deeper Conversation

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And I'm learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And I'm learning you

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

Does your name ryhme with mine?

I fall for you. hard. you can tell if you found out. I really do. the feeling is there deep down in my heart. tapi, stuck. it seems that I can't let it out. god. that's pathetic. I would like to share the feeling with him. if I tell anyone, they will freak out. he seems too far and too fragile for me to catch. a part of me wants to hold on to that feeling tapi the other part is totally disagree. he seems unreal somehow. tapi, I want to know everything about him. I wonder what's he doing now. I wonder if he's ever think of me. I wonder if he likes this song. I wonder if he prefers to watch that movie with me. I wonder if he wants to jog with me. I wonder if he would like me to meet him after his futsal game. I wonder if he would like to have dinner with me. I wonder where did he get those talents in him. see? I've been wondering all these stupid things all along. if only I could tell him. if only he's here. if only he understands me. if only he has the same feeling as mine. if only he'd see me. and if all my 'ifs' came true, I'll be the most happiest person on earth you've ever known. the feeling of liking someone is nice kan? I know.

Awak, awak. I tear myself apart for liking you.

Will you like me back?

You told me that it's over.

Oi panas. I just got back from Masi Ezan's. damn duit sgt jimat if I stay with them longer. *sigh* I went there because of raya Mat laaa. haha. Deepavali. cuti straight 4 days in a row. at first, I planned to balik Jitra indah nan permai tapi malas lah since Masi Shila is going to hit the town. haha. so, lepak. jalan-jalan. makan nasik lemak, keropok lekor setiap hari. gemuk.

Masi Ezan cakap she's 52 kg lepas kumpul lemak raya Aidilfitri and tgh strictly on diet because nak turunkan sampai 49 kg. gila apa? CikFarhani yg tembam dan sihat ni takda lak nak diet? hahah. nooo wayyy. diet is on waiting list. there's lotsa perkara to think first.

Erm, tadi petang kan at exact 16:29 ada one number ni call. I was in the car going to some home-deco nya kedai with aunties sayang saya. tapi yg calling tu tulisnya 'Withheld'. apakah? disebabkan I din't know who's number that was, so I picked up. curious la kiranya. nak tau siapa?


si K sial.


hah. lepas tu baru rasa nak maki hamun.

CF : helo.
K : hai.
CF : err, siapa ni? *muncung muncung mulut dan berfikir*
K : tak kenal ke? kawan lama.
CF : kawan lama yg mana?
K : kalau cakap boyfriend lama?
CF : &^%$#@ *tersumpah seranah sedikit*
K : haha. kat mana?
CF : dalam kereta. ikut makcik *nada suara benci + malas + menyampah*
K : eh, pergi mana?
CF : pergi rumah makcik.
K : ooo. rumah makcik kat mana?
CF : Ukay Perdana, Ampang.
K : I see. I baru balik from Johor ni. sampai sini pukul 4 pagi tadi. ada meeting dekat JB pagi semalam. lepas tu singgah Skudai jap.
CF : Skudai? *agak pelik.tapi, I din't ask anything pun! apahal nak cerita cerita pulak?!!! ok fine. layan je lah.*
K : yap. jumpa mata air la.
CF : *diam dengan rasa geram yang teramat*
K : ni nak pergi service kereta jap.
CF : *dalam hati : tak tanya pun!*
K : ...*tiba-tiba terputus*

Alhamdulillah. that was close to suicide.

K, pergi main jauh jauh la. jangan kacau aku. aku dah tak larat nak mencarut carut towards kau.

Hey you over there in red!

come come. nearer please. there's something I would like to tell. oh pleaseee. don't put that straight face upon me. guess what, I'm happy. did you? no? why not? we're still breathing on this mother-earth and it's a bliss. at least, you should be happy for that. a friend told me so. :)

today is 21st of Syawal. so, there are 9 days left for me to finish up my puasaaa. haigu. tu la. hari tu lengah-lengahkan sangat.

that served you well Cik Farhani.

today baru 4 hari habis. 2 more to go. I can do it. yes yes. thanks. as always I puasa together with Kak Wae, Elley, Adik Tgh and Pah sekali. Kak Tgh cuti. haha. nasib lah. takpa. I am willing to teman awak nanti Kak Tgh!

Thursday 161008
act, last week we made a plan to rebus kerang in Senah's rice cooker. sebabnya, the night before, we went to Santai to have dinner. Adik Tgh saw this 'Kerang Bakar' nya sign and she was like 'Nak tak?' tak perlu tanya kut. everyone is very into food for the time being.

3rm = 47 ketul kerang. gila mahal. haha. yes. we did count the kerangs. and at instant we decide to buy some kerang kat Tesco and rebus on our own. Pah gave this idea after all and she's like 'Kerang aku belanje. Korang tolong masak' mestilaaa boleh Pah oi. we planned to rebus everything on last Friday. tapi, call punya call TSN tak angkat call. Pah and Kak Wae needed to borrow his motor la as always. tak jadi. takpe lah. Pah nak balik rumah, Kak Tgh nak pergi Bangi and Elley pun nak pergi rumah Puchong.

Monday 201008
however, we finished class early today. last class is Miss Leong nya class, so we decided to buy kerangs today and rebus for berbuka later. Kak Wae and Pah nak pergi dengan motor lagi this time tapi nak pinjam Nik Fathuddin nya lak. dia pun tak angkat call. apakah? di mana mereka? tidur. plan B = Dira's motokar. Kak Wae and Elley nak pergi naik cab at first tapi sikalang petang-petang selalu hujan. berbahaya untuk kesihatan lah darls. they went with Dira and 6.30 tak balik lagi. I was like where the hell are they? nak berbuka 7.01 kut and they're not even here yet. nak rebus kerang lagi.

tapi we did it jugak in the end. *malas nak tulis panjang panjang lagi dah* the best part is the time makan kerang itself. kicap + sos cili pedas + sos cili cair. mampusla kalau sakit perut esok. mesti sebab kerang. tapi, tiba-tiba Zura datang and "Ti, Miss Rohaiza call aku. Die cakap korang bising sangat." omg. I didn't realized we made such noise in the meantime. sorry sorry.

tangan gatal pegang + makan + kupas kerang.

Now, not then.

Today is just too happy. at least for me. I hope we share the same happiness :)
1. I got to watch 'em perform.
2. I enjoy the company of Kak Aida.
3. and I enjoy that Tembikai.

Err, tapi I can't find his team anywhere. ala rugilah. tapi, you can tell I'd admired you kan from all these? Shut you mouth up.



Yeah betul life could be veryyy frustrating sometimes, tapi when there's people who look out for you, things will go right no matter how it was before.

Do you get what I mean? *ala-ala Mr. Burn. hahaha

Meaning, friends who support of whatever things that you're doing are great. having a friend who can share almost everything is marvellous and knowing you as my little-best-friend is perfecto.

People may think "What The?" tapi for me, a friend really costs me a million. I'm not this type of person who can live on her own. makan sorang-sorang pun boleh made me cry.
*I can be silly at times. thanks.

For you yang tak suka of things I buat this and that, I don't care. you can keep on talking behind me back. and btw, I love you. :)




We went to Dira's semalam and I've got thingy for you.
Pengajaran 1 : Never lengah-lengahkan masa untuk memegang holder besi di dalam LRT setelah memasukinya. you will end up jatuh atas orang nanti seperti Ezzati apabila LRT mula bergerak. ok. hiperbola kut. almost je.

Pengajaran 2 : Pastikan pintu yang betul ketika anda mahu keluar LRT and don't stand di hadapan pintu yang tidak akan dibuka. I did semalam. gila segan.

hahahaha

Yes, it's diificult.

Ped dengar Milk In The Bottle-Jumpa Pak Cik Hussein dah masuk 5 kali for now. Mary Poppins Mary Poppins. haha. it keeps on repeating and I keep on listening. lirik sumpahla tak dapat tangkap lagi. tapi, belasah je la. boring.

Today Raya. sambutan je lah. tapi, Ezadd takda.

We miss you darling!

Time-time genting ni cell phone beliau takda bateri la pulak. baru plan nak video call supaya beliau tidak ketinggalan. tapi, we snap snapp snappp banyakkkkk piccie. nanti, you tengok us ok!

Act, Ped nak tanya. how do you feel for friends yang tak appreciate us as her friends? she talk about us behind our back. cerita-cerita to them yang seperti anjing laut. she tell others of our secrets which she suppose to keep within herself. she pretend to be nice. she this she that. the list goes on and on and on! hah. dah menyampah dan bengang la ni.





sial kan? i know.

shit la wei. you don't have to fake things in front of us. we can read behind the lines. we can read your mind, in fact. because all the dirty and shitty things je in it. but, yeah, we can't figure out what do you want to do next. your hidden agenda la konon.

takyah nak tell lies. takyah nak make up stories. takyah nak buat gila lah! we just knew it right from the start. wasting time je.

I don't care dah. tapi, you're hurting me friends. whaddaya think? if you were me, you wouldn't give a damn on that particular person lagi dah kan?

but, have you ever come across of why we are still here right beside you? because, we are friends. the bond is just to tight. tell me is there any girl doesn't need a girl-friend?

look here, if something came up, you rasa them tu will come and rescue you ke? pergi la mati. they're just being themselves. selfish all the time! they're there to make use of you. as far as I'm concerned lah kan. ufph!

ok. you buat scandal here and there. buat gedik itu buat gedik ini. tapi, there's no one questioning of what you're doing pun. so, I guess there will be no need for you to interfere of her(s) matters la kut. macam menyibuk dan menjengkelkan je.

see? how we still accept you as you are walaupun you dah buat tahi unta.

dah benci dan malas la perempuan. suka hati kau lah.

Holding each other's till the very end?

It's half past ten and I'm in this boring mood. I just got back from Aela's btw. Saja pergi Shah Alam to have a very nice Bihun Tomyam. home-made. look, now I start dreaming of home oh. btw, here's a pic of Tomyam. jgn jeles ha.


Jah Enna Kadesh and Anne pun ada. seems like they did not want to miss out the fun. At first, Enna menabur janji kat Jah to take her jalan-jalan around Shah Alam. tapi, time nak rent a car, semua tempat are not available. Jah marah kemudiannya sambil berkata "Kuang ajaq la. kata nak bawak jalan. tapi, duk tang ni ja dari tadi."
Whoaa. takut dengar Jah. Hahaks. This is we lah!


I slept at Aela's jugak last night. ditemani Nun dan bintang. hell it was fun. Bebaskan! kata Bang Bil. Nun la keep on joking jokingg jokinggg till 2 a.m.
I was like really tired dah and sedar je, 9.05 a.m.
Omg. subuh? don't ask. mintak ampun. uuuuu

Act, I promised these girls to gerak from Cheras after Maghrib. tapi, I didn't make it. I arrived there around 10.30 p.m. sooorrryyy girls~
It's because petang at 4 camtu Ziham called and cakap ada open gig kat CM. so, I'm not going to waste more of my time surfing the net (I was during the time he called. was like 4 hours dah jalan-jalan around web page yang entah apa-apa) and whatsoever. I quickly get ready, fetch a cab and headed to BTR. Ziham cakap turun kat Masjid Jamek. I did, on my OWN. berjaya berjaya. see, that shows the brave part of Cik Farhani.

The thing is I don't know the exact way to CM. mana pernah pergi. lalu depan je. itu pun ingat-ingat lupa. so, I waited in front of HSBC. tunggu Ziham. haha. padan muka beliau kena jalan jauh and pusing dua tiga kali =p =p

Later while walking and talks, I feel like stabbing on Ziham's back. siot la. taknak cakap awal-awal. I'd missed Couple performed. I've been waiting to watch them before. selalu je tak boleh. Where did I go wrong??? Ouaaa. hahah. sounds like buat crime je. abaikan perempuan gila-tak-ikut-masa. *takleh pergi-Jah.

And so, I watched mana yang sempat je la. The Agrobeats eventhough I'm not a very big fan of ska, Republic of Brickfields which I've listened for the first time. tak pernah dengar pun before. then followed by peoples' favorito, The times and Meet Uncle Hussein. last sekali pun tak sure because we stormed out of the crowd. dah lapar nak mampus. Lepak McD and at 8.00 lebih I made my way to Sentral and Ziham to Cheras. Here are the crowd of The Times.


I know. many said "Whoaa. gila sanggup." Too many ke? kat Sogo time sale Deepavali lagi banyak rasanya. hahaha

That's the story. Having friends around you making you feel gorgeous kan? I don't care if you're not. I am. Smileeeee~









Ezzati : Hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk membenci. Kau tengah geram dengan sorang ni kan? and I feel like bunuh this someone.

She took a glance of the pain and looked away.

If you break my heart, I'll say

Thank You.

Cause you don't give a damn who Carrie Underwood is.

oh by the way, I'm her twin.

Love, go away.

I 'walk' around and suddenly I passed by Hana's. Hana tagged me. so, I'll buat lah. :) :)

1. At what age you wish to marry?
^27 is the latest.

2. Will you consider sexual relationships before marriage?
^Ya Allah. never. I might did wrongsss always but I'll never ever come across this. I truly am avoiding.

3. Do you smoke?
^Why do i have to smoke when I had already knew the consequences that might hunt me down later in the day? I love myself and I will never touch any ciggies kotak kecik atau besar. I promised parents to be good and I keep my words.

4. List out two gifts you'd like to receive now.
^A car car car. Black Dragon Honda Accord latest edition. 3.5 kut.
^A boyfriend comes in 'gift' tak? I bet!

5. Who did you text most lately?
^Mat,Nunon,Ina and the Girlfriends. Asking 'kelas kat mana?' or 'cik meedah ada tak?' there goes haha

6. How old are you?
^Sembilan belas tahun.

7. What is the latest thing you bought with your own money?
^Don't you dare to laugh at me! Neutrogena 100ml Deep Clean Cleanser :p :p

8. State 3 people of the opposite sex that comes to your mind. Who will you most likely date?
^Muhammad Hazim Mustafa.
^Azfar who? I'd admired you ever since I saw you.
^K again. You come in terms of Hate.

Date? None of these. Azfar boleh kut? Are you available?

9. Where do you wish to get married?
^I haven't make my judgements yet on these things. whoaa. judgements la sangat.

10. How old do you think you will be permanently owned by love?
^I will now, if the right guy comes along.

11. How many kids do you want?
^The least is 4 and the most is 6. them criticised me. them said too many. bluerkkk

12. Are you in love?
^No. *waiting face*

13. Where is the latest restaurant you have dinner?
^Err. where ha? can't recall.

14. Name the latest book you bought.
^I haven't purchased any appropriate books for the time being. mags ada la. se7en-teen? haha

15. Do you believe in God?
^Hana! who tagged you earlier??? Soalan apakah ini? YES.

16. Name your favourite game or sport.
^Paintball is a game or sport? It costs me money but still I'd loveee to.

17. Name the first person that comes into your mind now.
^Rahida Ainun Binti Noordin. I've met you like what, 3 days ago but I still miss you though. I don't know why but I kept thinking the old we. how I wish I could turn back time and I'm hoping we'll never get old. I want to keep you right beside me for a lifetime tau!

18. The most exciting place you want to go.
^None. If home is an exciting place, I'll go and stay and there's no way me returning back here.

Kidding! I have to move on with life. I know that c:

19. Hugs or kisses?
^Both! tamak haloba. both best apa. gatai

20. How do you judge people? Appearance important?
^It depends. I don't really observe people. I need an extra time for that.

Thank You.

I tag : Alialala, if you happen to read these *smileee*

Eid Fitri

Eh rakan-rakan,

Selamat Hari Raya!

I know today is the 6th tapi Raya is sebulan.

The reason for the late wish is kerana I can't log on the previous week as I'm at home.

A home without internet connection for another 2 weeks ok. [Raped's Renovation]

saya tak kisah. saya ok saja.