- (Part 3)

relief.
I had my haircut the day before yesterday.

hey awak, tak yah nak post new entry bila tengah high la!

Drowned for the sake of happiness.

Come back again Don't let it end Come back again Don't let it end

Cik Farhani keep on listening and sing and listen again to Come Back Again ni for the last two hours. I have nothing to do. Bapak and Mamma had gone to kenduri kat Malau. I'm not in the mood for nasi minyak minyak so I chose to stay at home.

I was sweeping all around the house this morning when Nunun called. ces. Mohd Irfan was like 'ha, nak pi mana pulak? dah dah la tu.' huh si kalut. Nunun called just to say hai ja la. she was up and got nothing to do so she called me. dengki!

Oh forgot to mention. I ate 2 slices of Walnut Brownies and New York Cheese Cake last night and I'm thinking of 'how the hell am I gonna lose weight if I ate without consideration?' haha. Didiey text me last week telling he had lost 1 kg. alah, 1 kg saja. I'll lose 8 kg nanti bak kata Ziham.

Bahasa Melayu Bahasa Kebangsaan

Petang semalam pergi tasik. lagi. plan nak tengok Aney kat meja urusetia la tapi sekali Aney dah balik. hahaha. padan muka. jalan tak sampai setengah Enna dah ajak balik. bukan balik. makan to be exact. lalala. Din and Kunduq pun join. tapi, Kunduq tak mau makan sebab dia janji nak makan dengan Aney later. dah maghrib dan hujan rintik masa tu, jadi kami-kami berhenti sembahyang dan membuang masa di rumah Enna. lagipun Enna dah nak balik Ahad ni. tengah burn-burn gambar dan bersembang, Mak Cik Mariah telefon. dia suruh Nunun balik dan tolong beli susu pekat kerana dia nak buat ketupat. haha. raya seminggu lagi Mak Cik Mariah oi. Nunun cakap mak dia saja ja buat sebab baru belajar buat ketupat daripada tok dia. rajinnyaaa! Cik Farhani pun nak belajar jugak lah nanti. :)

My bad. You're right.

Last night's mood : ANNOYED.
she made promises and she broke 'em off.

Well yeah, you always did while I'm waiting like a fat lunatic at home and it's 10.47 P.M.

hah. pergi mati.

Dear Tong, Bilal and Wan.
nanti Cik Farhani buat tag-tag itu semua ok.
I'm not really in the mood.
sorry.

Engagement ceremony of a friend.

malas.

I'm happy though walaupun I did nothing educationally. *winking* we watch Madagascar 2 in the afternoon walaupun K-own separuh mati merayu to watch Selamat Pagi Cinta. yaicks. siapa nak tengok?

Cukuplah hari tu Cik Farhani watched I'm Not single with Elley (on her lappy) which I gave 0.5 star for it's ridiculous and yet cliche storyline. hahaha

Then, char koey tiaw lagi. this time around happening sikit as we invite Din Cacat and Aney. tapi, Aney busuk la! baru lepas balik dari rumah Kunduq (tolong cat kandang lembu Kunduq!) :) Kunduq and Kadesh tak ikut and a few minutes later Kunduq text Enna saying 'kami keluaq lepaih Maghrib. hampa tak sembahyang Maghrib ka?' lah, sejak bila baik ni? selalunya sembahyang Jumaat pun lubang-lubang. haha lagi.

They'll be going to Langkawi tomorrow. according to plan la. for two days and a night. Nunun, Jah, Enna, Kunduq, Aney, Kadesh and K-own. I want to at first tapi fikir-fikir balik, last June baru ja pergi and I don't think Raped will let me go as he went for an outstation for four days. semestinya he wants me to watch Mohd Irfan's back between these four days. so, I sit and listen to their plans. dah booking chalet pulak tu! ah. jealous. takpa, Nunun promised me pergi Karnival Water Park sama-sama this weekend before Enna balik Shah Alam. yey. I'm looking forward to it. btw, Paan si Jiran ada girlfriend baru. she's a sarawakian. LOL. I knew because he kept updating me with his love-life stories tu. ufph.

Oh I loveee friends. it's fun to catch things up after like 3-4 months not meeting each other.

you think so?

I did it. I don't care.

As I promised, here I put on some pitcha.

Ni lah hook yg abang tu lupa letak at first! xp

See? done. good job abang-abang curtain Wonderful sekalian.

My roomie. lihat luar saja ok? di dalam serabai.

- (Part 2)

I haven't mandi! and it's 12:10 p.m. :)
bakal mendengar leteran Puan Jamilah.

masa CUTI memang macam ni.

He's a super dumb and I love him.

Hey Ho Let's go.

Entah mana entah I read this. so, saja letak. haha. hari ini Khamis. meaning seminggu di rumah. lebih kurang la. I didn't merayap mana-mana lagi. except pergi all those kenduri, home-deco nya kedai, visiting Mak Ba Jiqi Jiji and new-born Fizzry. btw, his real name Zilfizzry. oh god. Bancik, lain kali letak la nama yang senang sebut sikit. Auntie Farhani rasa nak terbelit lidah sebut nama baby baru awak.

Semalam I spent my day tunggu abang-abang kedai Wonderful Curtain pasang curtain kat rumah. I'm all alone ok bersama abang-abang tersebut. nasib baik the one yang bernama Wan tu peramah dan handsome walaupun gelap. Mak went out visiting her friend yang nak pergi Makkah lusa. Mohd Irfan seperti biasa menghilangkan diri pergi merantau rumah rakannya.

I did nothing. yes. basically nothing. first, I sit on the couch depan TV holding my pink phone in my right hand and my batu asah on my left. second, bersila dan pandang abang-abang tersebut menggerudi serta memasang benda kayu tu. this one time, I feel so proud of myself because I pointed out "Eh bro, sini tak yah tanda ke? tadi mak saya pesan sini pun kena letak hook tu jugak." yey. I sound so berpengetahuan because tegur mereka all of a sudden. konon macam tengah supervise la. haha.

I might put up some pictures here. later ok? my hands' full for now. I'm booked for another kenduri this afternoon. sigh lagi. jadi, bagaimana dengan rancangan untuk diet dan kurus ni? Adik Tgh, Elley, Didiey! Cik Farhani bakal gagal nampaknya. xp

xoxo

-

I'm doomed.
I get very bosan NOW.

I want to write but I can't think of anything to write about.

Nunun, cepatlah balik Jitra!

Tag. :)

Bilal tagged Cik Farhani. Cik Farhani tengah cuti, jadi Cik Farhani buatlah.

7 keajaiban (kepelikan) tentang diri sendiri:

1. Segan tak ikut masa. I can be seganless at a time and tiba-tiba segan untuk sesuatu yg tidak masuk akal/tak relevan.
2. Gelak dengan horror. Ezzati pun. and it's for something unfunny.
3. Suka org pelik-pelik. contoh : Pierre Andre.
4. Rasa sangat sayang untuk buang selipar walaupun selipar tersebut dah tiada tapak.
5. Kadang-kadang rasa nak sound orang yang dimenyampah tanpa sebab.
6. Rasa satu satisfaction bila dapat membawa kereta Raped. sebab beliau sangat jarang membenarkan Cik Farhani membawa keretanya.
7. Suka chapati yg Nani Cik Farhani buat sahaja. chapati org lain buat tak pernah sedap.

there. done.

Cik Farhani tag : Elley, Hana, dan Zack.

Fly dear fly, and catch those clouds.

Hujan merenyai tiba-tiba.
Menangiskah kau langit?

Hmm. sama seperti dia.

:(

Plus the heartless her.

Hey sana. Cik Farhani depan tv. Mak tgh tgk hindustan channel 108. Bapak menghilangkan diri ke dalam bilik. Adik tgh MySpace-ing dari tadi. mak oi. sangatlah menyampah. I was looking forward to watch TV all by myself earlier. waiii. can't la nampak gayanya. hari ini sehari di rumah. sleep all the way. haha

I had my dinner tadi around 9.00 dengan Adik. Char Koey Teow babe. oh sedap. depan Secret Recipe kat Yawata. siapa-siapa yg tau tempat tu jum lah join Cik Farhani lain kali. my treat. xp

haih. bagi cadangan sikit apa perlu Cik Farhani buat sekarang. thank you!

This is my list ;
1. kerja - malas (raped tak bagi).
2. masak - kurang cekap.
3. ajar Adik - baru lepas habis PMR.
4. lepak dengan mereka - semestinya. tgh tunggu Nun balik Jitra and Mat habis exam.
5. visiting Nani - nanti lah. cuti panjang lagi.
6. makan - hish.
7. tidur - hish lagi.
8. jalan-jalan - nak pergi mana?
9. tolong mak - always have always will. xp
10. *taktau dah*

see. I need help. fast!

Hols and Teh O Beng keep coming for more.

Holiday begins now. Cik Farhani nak pulang malam ni! at exact 11.00 p.m menaiki bas Transnasional. there'll be 2 months of enjoyness and craziness at homey. semakin gemuk nanti for sure. benci!

Elley diam lah! *Elley tgh bising sebelah Cik Farhani sekarang. tgh cerita pasal GEMUK. we are. haha*

HAPPY HOLS FRIENDS :)

Examination fascinates her and him.

Done with English and patiently waiting to sit for Maths 2. whoaa looks like I'm well-prepared kan? walaupun Minutes of Meeting Cik Farhani agak merepek, tapi ok kut. I hope so.

Dah several days asyik buat Maths 2 nya exercises je. pray for me will ya? tomorrow is the day. the big day. as big as your parents's wedding day. haha

Tadi after English, Kak Ribbon (Puan Rashidah kut if I'm not mistaken) asked Ana and Sheken to stay as she thought they were copying each other. alah. kecoh. orang tu mintak something from the other one je la. bukannya nak tiru pun. dah tu, Kak Ribbon ni continuously blabbering on the type of good attitude teachers must have.

B-O-R-I-N-G.

eh, babai. nak pergi TESCO. Kak Tgh dah panggil. makan jum!

edit : kenapa Kak Ribbon?
kerana beliau selalu pakai tudung ikat bentuk ribbon dekat depan.
macam mak-mak kita selalu pakai around 80's and 90's dulu tu.
so, that is why. don't laugh. biarlah. dah dia rasa cantik sebegitu. xp

A pocketful of hope and a cuitcase of memories.

Is there anyone's birthday today? hands up please. I guess there is.
alamak I tend to forget stuff lately.
maaf!

But, that need to feel worthy disgust others.

Ok. I've had enough of the BITCHES all around me. sick. oh tolong. especially with this one girl. she thinks she's that HOT ke? bullshit. muka pun average je. she talks as if it seems she wore a piece of Charles & Keith on her. and Pavi konon? hey, pergi mampus. kau tu Mydin je kut. why is that you need to show off? we're not some goddamn school girls anymore with pink backpacks and pink pencil cases. excuse. I own few things better than you kut. you name it! budak ni guna Swatch and Fossil la bodoh. hardly hear them talk about themselves. I daresay you don't even have any Converse atau Vincci. If only you own these things, then you can talk!

Ah wait. you explore Friendster in primary shcool eh? haha. since when? as far as I'm concerned lah kan, around our lower form baru those things popular in Malaysia. now don't tell me you'd live in Manchester pulak in 1990. I won't trust you liar. you don't have to talk as if you know every single thing on this mother earth. you've made a BIGGG mistake to mention those particular things to me. I learn and figure out things much more than you! but, I've never come across of under-estimating people. bangang la kau. sangat. have you ever realize that? your outfit pun takda la classy and elegant sangat.

Setakat blouse colour coklat yang jarang dan nampak macam makcik pun nak kecoh ke? jeans biru tu je aku tengok kau pakai. baju pergi kelas kau pun macam budak kampung je. takda pun sequin atau thai silk untuk kau banggakan. kalau kau setakat guna MAC and Bobbi Brown yang kau beli kat Downtown, kau diam ok? ada jugak yang aku terajang nanti.

I don't give a damn for these things biasanya, tapi kau bising depan aku. aku bukan macam kawan kau tu yang nak dengar and impressed kononnya. great minds and beautiful souls don't make up stories ok.

Still, it's fucking hilarious to hear regarding the drug addict that you've been texting since I-don't-know-when. is there anyone will be talking something like that proudly in public? ugh. it's ok. take all the addicts that you want and spare me and my girls all those hotties. I'm fine with it. hahaha. look, now I sound like a real bitch.

Shower. now.

So, tell me. Do you see me?

HAPPY.

Yesterday was quite a day. spending time with friends was just worth it kan? who needs a boyfriend anyway. huh.

At first, me and Kak Tgh planned to buy something for Bestfriend for his birthday on November 5th. so, I asked him 'jom keluar'. he was like 'ok. mane?' so I said 'mane-mane la.' decided KLCC then. eventually, Adik Tgh and Elley pun joined us. it's ok. I thought we'll be having lots of fun later. hehe. and hell yes, we did.

We got ready and headed to bus stop at 2 p.m. panas kan? exactly. we're quite lucky as tak perlu menunggu U45 lama-lama. oh lupa, we decided to naik buses sahaja today. no LRT or cab. *bla bla bla* then, we sampai! so, I thought I'll go straight to Kinokuniya. rupa-rupanya Adik Tgh ada satu lagi mission. Auntie Anne's dia. haha. nak jugak pretzel walaupun we'd had our lunch just now. I bought cheese and Adik Tgh caramel. cheese kurang sedap ok. don't buy. caramel tastes better. then, we went to Kinokuniya. me, Kak Tgh and Ziham went up first as Adik Tgh and Elley pergi jalan mana entah. oh I was so rambang mata there.

Ziham cakap 'Kalau aku ade 10,000rm, aku datang sini main ambik-ambik je masuk dalam trolley. takyah nak pilih-pilih dah. beli je semua.' haha. berangan lah kau.

At last, I bought Sophie Kinsella's latest book je titled Remember Me? and Seventeen as usual. tapi, Ziham takleh pergi. he bought a some sort of a-GAY-trying-to-be-normal-again book. whoaa. nanti nak pinjam ok fren? dah beli-beli semua, we went straight down to Romp. ok, ok. I'll tell. I want to buy a motivational book sebenarnya untuk si Bestfriend ni. tapi, banyak pulak songehnya. itu lah, ini lah. so, cancelled. dah masuk Romp, Ziham tried on this one sweater and he liked it. I told him that I and Kak Tgh will pay so that the sweater will be our gift for him lah. haha. dia cakap mahal pulak. ah. I don't care. we want to buy a present for you after all, so instead of buy things that you don't like, it's better for us to buy that sweater je. betul tak?

Sweater purchased. yey. considering Ziham didn't eat anything yet since the night before, I suggest for us to MAKAN. makan is always the best part kan? haha. and Ziham buy us food for this time around. sizzling mee for everybody. oh, Adik Tgh je dapat mee udang for she didn't like sizzling mee. Adik Tgh special kan? :p

We performed Asar and Maghrib di sana and Elley sempat beli kereta control lagi! red in colour! oh hot! Elley cakap she didn't buy anything and yet she wanted to buy something. alah, untuk Achik dia. hehe. on our way out, we bought Roti Boy and there we off. nampak bas and terus naik without us realizing itu bas B114 ke Titiwangsa. damn. supposed we hop on to the one with 'Maluri'. takpelah, so, pusing sekali lagi depan KLCC. haha. Adik Tgh pening dalam bas, sampai Maluri terus naik teksi balik maktab dengan Elley while me, Ziham and Kak Tgh waited for U45.

Jom belajar Maths 2 kat bilik Elley! toodles~

With or without, she lives happily still.

Pegang, pecah.

Sentuh, hilang.

Rasa, sakit.

Lihat, indah.

Itu Cinta.

~Anonymous

The starlight stalker she has been.

To the most reliable person I've ever come across.
To the most outstanding person ever stand next to me.
To the most thoughtful person I've met since forever.
To the most arrogant,
To the most beautiful,
To the most special,
To the craziest,
To the happiest,
to Rahida Ainun Binti Noordin, I thank you for everything.

I am totally glad we're destinied to be together. for you to be mine and for me to be yours. we're cool in our own way. we're lesbian in our way. we share the same happiness in our way. we love each other with no limit.

7 years old - 19 years old and still counting. that's for sure.

I don't ever want to lose you.

Nunun gemuk, ingat tak dulu ketika darjah 4 dan mengayuh basikal pergi tusyen Cikgu Zainab pukul 3 petang? masa tu ada satu kedai bakery dekat Taman Jitra Indah tu. balik tusyen, Ped, Zack and Nunun mesti singgah beli roti. lepas tu kayuh laju-laju balik rumah sebab takut kena marah kalau lambat balik.

Nunun gemuk, ingat tak dulu ketika darjah 5 petang-petang mesti keluar main dekat padang depan rumah Farah. tapi, dah nak dekat pukul 6.30 mesti Ped dah kecoh-kecoh nak balik.
'Aku nak balik dah ni! Mak aku nak mai ambik dah ni. satgi ba dengan abang aku marah. esok sambung lagi na!'
Walaupun ketika itu Ped sangat tak nak balik disebabkan semua orang baru nak mula main galah panjang.

Nunun gemuk, ingat tak dulu ketika darjah 6 jalan balik sekolah sama-sama? tapi, Ped sorang je jalan kaki. Nunun, Zack semua naik basikal. tapi, tak mengapa. Ped tabah. kadang-kadang jalan saing Dila. masa dapat keputusan UPSR tu ingat tak? kita dapat 4A saja. yang lain semua dapat 5A. Nunun, Ped ingat lagi Ped menangis. lepas tu jalan balik sorang-sorang. sampai rumah nangis lagi.

Nunun gemuk, ingat tak dulu ketika tingkatan 1 kita sama-sama dapat masuk SMJ? seronok kan? pergi orientasi sama-sama. tapi, first day sembahyang asar and zohor kat sekolah rasa tak best. habis orientasi, Ped masuk kelas 1 Intelek and Nunun masuk 1 Cerdas. nama saja gah tapi itu kelas number 6 dan 7. haha. Ped sedikit bernasib baik. tiga hari je kat kelas tu, cikgu suruh naik kelas 1 Arif. tapi, Nunun and Aela kat bawah lagi. masa rehat pukul 3.25, ingat tak kita selalu duduk tepi longkang sebelah bilik guru minum air oren? bila fikir balik, buat segan saja. semua cikgu kat dalam tu boleh nampak kita sebenarnya.

Nunun gemuk, ingat tak dulu ketika tingkatan 2 Nunun dah naik kelas. 2 Kreatif, kelas number 4. Ped kelas 2 Arif lagi. masa cikgu takda selalu lepak kat City Point. sembang dengan Pak Abu. tak pun, tengok je K-own dengan Din dating. kadang-kadang lambai dekat orang yang lalu sebelah pagar. kadang-kadang boring sangat, sanggup panjat pokok pakai kain biru sekolah semata-mata nak ambik gambar.
Rutin harian, tunggu bas Uncle tu mai ambik pergi sekolah pukul 11.55 pagi. dia berhenti rumah Nunun dulu baru ambik Ped. masa Ped naik selalu dah penuh. duduk pun kena share dengan orang. ee. geram betul. petang-petang masa balik sekolah, tempat kita mesti dekat belakang sekali. Ina selalu duduk depan Ped. agak kesian kat dia. selalu kena kacau. Nunun ingat tak kita selalu lambai-lambai kat Mok dengan Cat masa bas kita lalu sebelah mereka? indah kan?

Nunun gemuk, ingat tak dulu ketika tingkatan 3 Nunun dengan Ped dah satu kelas? 3 Arif. depan kita, Fikri dengan Ghazi duduk. selalu lawan-lawan cakap dengan mereka. benci. belakang kita Shira dengan Dila. masa tingkatan 3 kita selalu lepak dengan C-Wei kan? haha. nama dia Syafiq. Ped lagi suka panggil dia C-wei. ingat tak konon C-wei mengaku suka Dila, tapi kena reject? kesian dia. masa pergi tusyen kat TNB tu paling best. tusyen best, masa makan pun best jugak. haha. kesian Yob tu kan? tiap-tiap hari Selasa, Rabu, Khamis kita pergi kacau dia. habis PMR, kita sama-sama pergi buat ujian masuk MRSM kat Tanjung Pauh. ujian susah.
Oh ya, thanks beg biru Wild Channel untuk birthday Ped tu.

Nunun gemuk, ingat tak dulu ketika tingkatan 4 kita dapat masuk MRSM sama-sama? tapi, Ped dapat surat lewat jadi Ped daftar paling lewat. masa ujian nak tentukan kelas, kita dapat markah yang agak rendah jadi sekali lagi kita bersama-sama masuk kelas 4 Argentum. satu semester kat kelas tu kan? kita tak sedar. kita banyak main. semester 2 Ped naik 4 Samarium. Nunun stay kelas 4 Argentum lagi. kita mula tak rapat. konon, sibuk belajar. maafkan Ped. Ped tau Ped ada buat salah. Ped tau Nunun selalu cuba ajak Ped makan sama-sama, outing sama-sama, balik rumah sama-sama, tapi entah. Ped dingin. Ped lupakan Nunun. bukan. bukan sebab Ped ada kawan baru. mungkin kerana stress. Nunun tau kan Ped selalu menangis? Ped rasa situ susah tapi Ped dah tak boleh patah balik.

Nunun gemuk, ingat tak dulu ketika tingkatan 5 Ped dapat kelas 5 Argentum. Nunun kelas 5 Osmium. kita jauh lagi kali ini. kita bagai kurang kenal antara satu sama lain. apa-apa Ped buat dengan classmates Ped saja. masa roll-call pun Ped kurang tegur Nunun. Ped jahat kan? kat asrama pun, Ped jarang pergi bilik Nunun. padahal bukannya jauh pun. Ped lebih banyak pergi bilik Ina atau Hana. tapi Nunun, nasib baik ketika kita dekat dengan SPM Ped dah sedar. Ped gembira kerana masa Annual Dinner, kita satu table. kita terpinga-pinga melihat orang kan di sana? kita tetap gembira dalam kalangan kita. Nunun, Ped rindu. rindukan kita yang berbuka puasa di Aseanea dengan Abang Nikman. rindukan waktu malam minggu yang dihabiskan lepak di Jai tengok Arm sibuk menyiapkan pesanan makanan. rindukan waktu untuk tengok movie kat Dewan Kuliah. rindukan Pak Hassan marah kita tak turun Subuh.

Nunun gemuk, ingat tak dulu ketika selepas SPM, selepas tamatnya alam persekolahan kita, kita pergi ambik lesen kereta? tapi, Nunun ambik lewat sikit. sebab Nunun pergi KL rumah Kak Da kan? Ped ambik dulu dengan Ina, Mat semua. cuti kita lama, 5 bulan. kadangkala bosan di waktu petang, kita keluar jalan di tasik serta mengambil gambar. ataupun keluar makan KFC dengan Nazar dan Im. jika rajin, pagi-pagi pukul 7.30 tunggu K-own datang ambik dengan kereta Honda dia untuk breakfast di belakang masjid lama. indah Nunun, indah.

Nunun gemuk, lepas dapat keputusan SPM, Nunun dapat Matrik Penang. Ped dapat Arau. jika diikutkan, ini kali pertama kita berpisah. Nunun, Ped sungguh-sungguh takut ketika itu. Nunun ingat masa minggu orientasi, setiap hari Ped text Nunun? Ped rasa janggal Nunun takda. tapi, Ped sebulan saja di situ sebelum masuk sini. sini juga indah Nunun, seperti kita dahulu.

Nunun, we're on a different path now. take good care. and we're looking forward for the same thing, semester break. Nunun be good.

Happy 19th Birthday.

Gone meant gone.

Sabtu.
bangun 8:45 AM.
grab towel & mandi.
minum Lipton Milk Tea.
makan Teddy Bear Chocolate.
Couple - Gotta Be My Girl di telinga.

Selasa depan exam Maths 1.
Tahniah!

Awak rindu kita tak?