Awak,

kenapa semalam masuk dalam mimpi saya?

benci.

Feeling so alive.

I spent my 200 in a single shot baby ;

on a pair of blue black skinny though I know I'm not that skinny enough to wear those but still I like the pair and so I bought it.

on a cotton plain purple legging.

on a dark brown vintage sling bag.

on a blue cardigan.

and yes the red one too.

I bought the two of them you see!

there, I went wild buying all those not so important stuff while the one and only thing I need is a pair of decent black shoes for Puteri Islam.

haha yes I am a typical girl who loves to shop.

My gorgeous man.

it is bapak's 53rd B-day today baby.
nampak tak tengah muka garang tu?
err menakutkan tak?

hahaha.

tu specialty dia.

tak ada la tu sebab tengah panas tu, aku dengan adik pulak buat-buat lembab nak pergi toilet la apa dulu whereas orang lain dah siap tengah tunggu dalam bas. tu muka membebel lah tu suruh kami pantas sikit.

hikhikhik.

bapak, I know I've never been that good. I know I didn't turn out the way you'd like me to be. I know I messed up and I know you're the one who clear them up.

but please, don't let me go just yet.
I still need you to walk me through life.

I LOVE YOU SERIOUSLY.
YESTERDAY TODAY AND FOR YEARS TO COME.

Gone, it all went away.

there is no more me in any of your photo albums I reckon so I guess there might be no space to fill me in your heart anymore, right?

cheers, FRIEND.

NZ pelis jaga kawan saya okay?

Zafirah tu dah sampai NZ rasanya. mula rasa rindu. hari tu tak sempat hantar disebabkan tuntutan BIG dan beberapa perkara lain. Kamil saja pergi. nasib baik pagi tu sempat call and cakap buat kali terakhir. lepas ni tak ada lagi orang yang cutinya sama. tak ada lagi orang nak diajak pergi makan claypot kat food court Pacific, tak ada lagi orang nak teman cakap merepek-merepek keluar topik.

erm takpa sekejap saja dah dua tahun kan?

Zack,
semoga sentiasa berbahagia kat sana.
jaga diri elok-elok.
rajin-rajin belajaq.
nanti dah habeh balik cepat tau.

apa lagi ah?

entah.

rasa pelik pulak aku bukak FB tak ada status update hang. selalu tu banyak ja.

huhu.

LOVESSS.

Roma-roma-ma.

sometimes it doesn't take much to make me smile.

cukup sekadar lepak depan TV dengar planning mak dengan bapak yang tengah berbincang susun jadual nak pergi makan kenduri ; which is rumah Razis number 1, rumah Ustaz Rahman number 2 and rumah Uncle Rozaini number 3.

:)

Achievement level for today.

Jitra memang panas lah dah dua hari aku balik ni! ka memang semua tempat macam tu? ok takpa. kalau aircond tu buleh bukak dua puluh empat jam konfem-konfem aku pasang sentiasa. tinggal lagi takut bil mendadak naik mau Raped mengamuk tiga hari tiga malam. dah la dengan laptop heater TV apa semua lagi.

hikhikhik.

tadi kan p rumah Masi Ina I drive kereta Raped nyah. I punya la seronok nak tunjuk kehebatan depan Asrap dengan Asyira sampai tak mau turun kereta selagi depa tak keluaq sambut depan pintu. haha riak dak?

pasai kedekut sangat payah betui nak bagi orang bawak kereta dia! bukannya nak menjahanamkan pun. heheh. tapi on the way nak balik tu dia tak bagi dah, rasa sebab I belasah sampai 140 kut tadi. ingatkan dia pejam mata tak nampak, rupanya dia buat tidoq ayam pulak.

isk potong betui.

dah, tu saja lah. mata mengantuk macam letak gam gajah dah ni tapi tadi duk tahan pasai nak jugak tulis kejayaan bawak kereta Raped siang tadi.

GOOD NIGHT LOVE.

Short and sweet.

homey, again.

I forgot my external (purposely) and a few other things.
I thought I've checked before I leave.

yeah I know, the same careless me.

wtv.

happy one week holiday.

Late and run.

teruja nak pergi mandi sat lagi kut sampai tak boleh tidur ni. so I'll keep posting things in my blog. everything's related to what I feel, currently la.

jadi kalau aku asyik ulang tayang dengar Good Charlotte's playlist sampai lima enam kali agak-agak apa perasaan aku sekarang?

FED-UP mungkin.

SEDIH mungkin.

MENYAMPAHS mungkin.

suka the Maddens mungkin?

haha oppps.

teringat pulak dulu-dulu zaman tingkatan empat ada budak Anis Farhana yang tunggang terbalik suka Billy dengan Joel ni. hehehs siap beli semua CD, angkut masuk asrama, ajak aku dengar. baju pun nak hitam jek semua. sneakers dia lagi, cermin mata dia lagi. nasib baik tak ikut carve tattoo sekali.

hish.

I don't care, I like these Maryland's guys.

sebab mereka cakap I don't wanna be you!

Will our jokes still be funny?

dah masuk bulan dua.

dah sebulan berlalu pergi bagi tahun 2010 ni. pergi macam tu saja. tinggalkan kenangan, keserabutan juga sekeping kebahagiaan mungkin. please stayyy kata Liyana si budak Estrella tu.

dah sudah merepek kerepek pisang.

semalam tidur kat UM. kat Kolej 2 Jah dengan Kak May. auwww coolio lah Kak May. heheh budak-budak ni kan shopping tak ingat dunia terbeliak jugak la bijik mata aku tengok expenses mereka.

memang seronok tapi disebabkan perasaan terganggu mood nak membeli belah pun hilang. ya memang lah pelik tapi nak buat macam mana memang aku tak berhawa nafsu untuk membeli walaupun dihidangkan seketul sneakers Roxy yang sangat mencabar keimanan.

paling tak boleh pergi apabila Jah berjanji palsu ajak pergi Murni last-last semua tayang muka letih buat alasan tidak mau p! memang aku bebai lah. menciiiii!

ok-ok sorry, thank you la sepatutnya.

esok nak mandi Desa Water Park yeyey!

^^

Creepy.

even it is YOU, I still couldn't count on.

I'll keep holding on all by myself.

I just knew how to.

I'm an expert, you see.

of faking and pretending.

and YOU are the heart-crasher.

YOU didn't bleed the same way as I do.

YOU didn't go the same thing that I've been through.

I'm letting it all go since it'll never gets better.

but yeah I'll still be searching.

Obviously.

wait.

I'm not sure how to deliver this in a most appropriate and polite way but I want to have my say.

I want everyone to know that something they're asking for is not something that I would like to answer.

erm okay tu saja lah kut.