Swaying in thoughts.

SERIOUSLY I have a feeling of writing everything down here. I want to nag and keep nagging till you got bored listening to me. first, I want to write pasal hantar Kunduq pergi Medan and I want to put up all the crazy pictures too.

then, I want to write about the day I went to watch Inception with Fren. I want to describe in details of how I don't really get the message of the movie at first 30 minutes showing. I want to write about how cold it is in that place and those very few people who watched the movie with us in the cinema.

I want to write about the difficulties I'd been through in completing my kolaj bunga and kolaj fraction. I know it didn't look that beautiful and neat but still I'm proud of myself because I'd put very much effort in producing those two.

I want to write and tell you about my classes, of how we sang in class for Seni Dalam Pendidikan and the way we struggle to find pictures that have several techniques i.e perspektif, close-up, panning and so on to present in class.

tapi, tadi mak call and bingo adik caused some more trouble at home and I don't see how do I write those things I want to write here with this uncertain feeling thinking of home and at the same time I know I don't want to go home just yet, I need to wait for things to cool down first I know that. at this point, I'm blaming bapak no more for being too firm on adik. I don't know who to trust anymore and I don't know where will this lead to. I just hope mak wouldn't be that disappointed but from her voice just now I know it hurts her big time. I thought he'd changed. I thought he'll be someone trust-able again, but I guess I was wrong. I wish I could lend a hand though I don't know how to.

and yes I'm in a state of frustration.