Could you make it on your own?

aku tak tulis suka-suka kat blog ni. aku tulis sebab aku boring atau aku marah atau aku over gembira atau aku ada benda nak cerita. tapi sekarang ni semua bertindan-tindan. rasa macam semua orang buat salah. semua orang tak betul. sorry, bukan egosentrik ok. cuma aku memang rasa macam tu, for no concrete reason.

susah sangat ka untuk orang appreciate aku seperti mana aku appreciate orang? susah ka untuk spend sedikit masa sama-sama to catch up things after been busy the whole fucking day or the entire damn week? aku tak ada la terhegeh-hegeh nak paksa atau apa, tapi fikir sendiri ah. small things like these yang strengthen up the friendship. tak percaya, try for yourself. you'll be nodding at my words afterwards.

betul lah tu, great minds don't think alike.

since I have a great mind and anyway I don't need you to agree with me pun. mampus aku ah nak perasan atau apa kan. now I would like people to see things the way I see so that they have some fucking lessons to learn about. correct me if I'm wrong please.

aku dah buat macam-macam. jaga hati orang tu, buat baik dengan orang ni. ikhlas tau tak. apa masalah sangat? aku tak ada mintak lebih-lebih pun. kadang-kadang kalau aku senyap tu faham-faham sendiri ah. aku pun ada jugak hari mood tak betul. tak kan la orang lain boleh tapi aku tak boleh kan? tak adil la pulak.

one word : complicated. orang Melayu cakap komplikasi. konon cool la.

and kadang-kadang aku pun dah penat to pick up phone calls only to listen to all those blabbering about her that she don't like, about him that pisses her off and about whatever things she wants to talk about lah basically. haih. habis aku ni siapa yang nak dengar? please think of a way to survive. aku benci when people act like aku part of her tapi bila ada orang lain yang boleh comfort her, then I will be left out.

baru rasa nak maki mencarut semua kan?

entah. I had this specialty cause I just knew when things start to fall apart. I guess now is the beginning. I need to prepare my own shield for myself.

yada-yada~